50 Shades of Chemo: Why I Wrote A Romance Book During My Cancer Treatment

In 2017, at the age of thirty-seven, I was diagnosed with cancer. How did I react? I wrote a book. Not a book about cancer, admittedly. Instead I chose to write a romance about feisty women, sexy men and exotic locations, and something that removed me as far away from oncology rooms as possible.

Two years ago I wrote the very first synopsis for Eyes To The Wind. The story idea was shortlisted for an international book prize that was open to all unpublished authors. But I never pursued it, even when the publishing world was interested. Jake Dalton has existed in my head for decades, often presenting himself in different guises in other stories that i’ve written, but i’ve never felt like i’ve done him justice. Not until last year. Not until ‘The Waiting’.

No one tells you about this part of a cancer diagnosis. Blood tests, pre-op assessments, chemotherapy sessions and oncology appointments all involve considerable amounts of ‘The Waiting’. To cope with the monotony of it all I retreated into my safe space, my writing space, and there I found Jake again.

Over the next few months I took the original idea and completely re-wrote it. In many ways it saved my life almost as much as my cancer treatment did. It allowed me to scream and cry and lose myself in my lead characters. During my darkest days my inner Charlie would always quip back at me with some smart remark, lifting me from despair.

Like so many, cancer has devastated my family in recent years. No words are adequate to describe the anger that I have felt towards this indiscriminate disease. There are no oceans wide enough for the tears i’ve shed. In light of this, all the proceeds are going to Bowel Cancer UK to help fund vital research and campaigns to save lives.

I am forever hopeful that we will find a cure for cancer in our lifetime.


Both there eBook and the paperback can be purchased HERE

“Five stars!”
“Sinfully good!”

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