Every Three Weeks I Let Cancer Win A Battle

On this day, typically the fifth or sixth since my last chemotherapy infusion, every insecurity and unspoken fear of mine wraps their icy fingers around my wrist and drags me deeper and deeper into the abyss. I can’t fight it. I simply don’t have the strength. My body feels heavy and useless. My antiemetic pills bring me no relief from…

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Bowel Cancer At 37 Is Something To Shout About

The weekend before my first chemo session my husband whisked me away on a surprise spa break. It was meant to be a relaxing, let’s-forget-about-all-that-cancer-crap for 24 hours… Alas, cancer’s shadow cast long and dark over even the most lightly scented of spa treatment rooms. I was asked to fill out a health questionnaire, you see. It’s a standard procedure.…

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Cancer: A Series of Compromises I Don’t Want To Make

My youngest, Jess, starts school on Monday. She’s so excited she might burst. She keeps packing her new book bag with toys and taking her new Clarks shoes out of their box. The build-up to this big event has been carefully micromanaged, often from my bedside. Shoes were bought six weeks ago regardless of the inevitable ‘summer growth spurt’. Her…

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My Biggest Regret In Life? Regret Itself …

A friend and I were chatting nonsense the other day, asking each other daft questions as we tried to stop our feral offspring posting crisps into DVD players and taunting the goldfish. It’s the sort of conversation that springs from a comfortable familiarity. Two friends who have known each other since our heydays of fake IDs, underage nightclubbing and alcopops.…

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I’m A Mum. I Don’t Have Time For Cancer

When a small mass was discovered in my sigmoid colon I found myself staring into an abyss of uncertainty. Biopsies were taken. A CT scan was scheduled to see if it had spread. I was left with an interminable 10-day wait until my fate was to be sealed in a colorectal surgeon’s office at 11:40am the following Wednesday. If cancer…

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A Life-Changing Diagnosis

I’ve been a bit quiet of late… In truth the last two weeks have been the most agonising, nerve-wracking and heartbreaking of my life. On May 17th I underwent a series of hospital procedures and was told with 99% certainty that I had colon cancer. Biopsies and scans were taken. Results would need to be waited for. Today it was…

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My Response To The Daily Mail’s Hatchet Job On Mum Bloggers…

Oh you rotters. You’ve done it again. Not content with degrading The Labour Party and the International Development community, you’ve turned your hateful attentions to us mum bloggers, singling out The Unmumsy Mum & Hurrah For Gin for extra detention. You call us ‘slapdash’ and ‘patronising’ to those who feel fulfilled as mothers. You accuse us of pimping out our…

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