A Letter To My Husband

I met you when I was seventeen. I think I loved you even then. Eleven years later we were married. Two years later I was pregnant with Emily. Two years after that we had Jessica. Our life is full of numbers. The good ones are the birthdays we’ve shared, the wedding anniversaries, all nine of them, and the parenting milestones,…

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Having a Breast Biopsy: My Experience

I feel like I’m on a medical juggernaut at the moment, one that’s driven by that crazy truck driver from the movie, ‘Duel’. It’s careering all over the road and that’s me, over by the back bumper, hanging onto the number plate by my fingernails. That’s the real kicker with The Big C… suddenly your whole body is under scrutiny.…

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I’m A Mum. I Don’t Have Time For Cancer

When a small mass was discovered in my sigmoid colon I found myself staring into an abyss of uncertainty. Biopsies were taken. A CT scan was scheduled to see if it had spread. I was left with an interminable 10-day wait until my fate was to be sealed in a colorectal surgeon’s office at 11:40am the following Wednesday. If cancer…

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Colon Cancer: Are Mums Suffering A Delay In Diagnosis?

Colon Cancer is tricky to diagnose, especially in mums. The vast majority of cases appear in the over 50s and routine screening by the NHS doesn’t kick in until you’re over 60. What’s more, piles (haemorrhoids) are common amongst us post-pregnancy ladies – the symptoms of which often mimic the early stages of Colon Cancer. If I had £1 for every…

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A Life-Changing Diagnosis

I’ve been a bit quiet of late… In truth the last two weeks have been the most agonising, nerve-wracking and heartbreaking of my life. On May 17th I underwent a series of hospital procedures and was told with 99% certainty that I had colon cancer. Biopsies and scans were taken. Results would need to be waited for. Today it was…

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The Night My Daughter Called Out For Daddy, Not Me

I’ve been working too much recently. My book has a deadline. My blog commitments are growing. I don’t see my bed much before midnight and my weekends are mostly spent locked away with just a laptop, a strong cup of coffee and me. Last night I felt the full weight of my absence from my girls. At precisely 1am it…

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A Day In The Life Of Small Children: Scene 1

I found a box of old film scripts yesterday, leftovers from a previous life. It got me thinking… What would the script of a real mum’s life look like? Hmmmm. Well, here’s my version: SCENE 1: ‘Would you like a snack?’ INT: UNTIDY COTTAGE – DAY. Mum enters the room. Her long brown hair is disheveled. She has a wary look on her face. It’s 3:10pm.…

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